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October 04th, 2021 - An Important Day.

An important day.           October 4th, 2021, I decided to come out as a bisexual to my parents and family. Although it hasn't been easy for some reasons.           Since I was a child I was always taught that liking people of the same sex was something wrong, something reprehensible in Christianity, as if it were a kind of unpardonable crime.           This caused me a lot of problems growing up. From a certain age I started to close myself off from people, I found myself locked in my room, I didn't want to leave the house, go to a party, cinema, I even thought about suicide, I almost fell into a deep depression, I didn't talk to anyone, not even my parents. It affected my relationship because I didn't tell them what was happening to me, and it made me go through a lot of things, having traumas.           I didn't accept myself, I was afraid of "eternal damnation", even though I knew that religion is something controversial to debate. This caused me a lo

Love...

Love...          Love is the most beautiful things in the universe.          I must have fallen in love about 8 times, and I'm going to tell you the main stories.          I was 10 years old and I remember it like it was yesterday. The girl looked like a big actress. I even lost track of time, distracted myself during classes. Once I was walking down the school corridor, and suddenly I fell on the floor with all the material from the physical education class, that day was very funny, my excuse for what happened was that I couldn't look ahead because the material was blocking my view, even though everyone saw it, they didn't believe what I said at all because they knew the truth. But there was nothing between us.         The next story is going to be a little bit more spicy, so if you're under 16, skip that part. (As if that were going to happen.)         At 14 years old, I met another girl, her mother always came to my house because she was my mother's friend, while

I wanted to die.

 I wanted to die.           When I saw that nothing in my life was working out, after many and many frustrations, after people took advantage of my vulnerable situation, I thought several times about killing myself, jumping in front of a truck, I didn't want anything else, just I wanted to die.           I gave up a lot to be able to try something that for me was much bigger than anything that anyone could get.           I broke up many friendships, I fought with many people, including my parents, many wanted to try to make me give up, and in fact, I gave up many things. I did many things that I was not doing for me, something that was not for love, something that I liked and that I always wanted to do or follow, I had never followed my heart and instincts before.           Even with all the problems, some people harmed me, and because of that I lost money, and to this day I still pay for it.          As I cannot live from art, being an actor, etc., working is necessary. In the com

Before and now.

          Before and now. Well, this is something that few people know, but everyone will know now.           Sometime ago I had many problems. Despite having monocular vision as a result of being born prematurely, with problems due to lack of development in organs like lungs, and for having been in the ICU, "used oxygen" for a long time, taking boxes of injections and medications. I had 3 cardiac arrests, the doctors said that I was going to die, that it was just a miracle to survive, and that if I survived I would have a lot of sequelae, or become disabled on bed, but the only problem I have is monocular vision that can be fixed with surgery.            I've been through for many things. During my 10 years old I had a big dream, to be an big actor, singer, pianist, a big artist.           So few years later, I figured out that some guy was interested to give an opportunity to me. But that time I couldn't to follow my dreams because my parents couldn't move on to

About me

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Guss Koglin - 12/31/2019  About me.          My name is Gustavo. Guss is like everyone calls me, my artistic name.            Well, I was born in Sinop, Mato Grosso, Brazil, in February 2nd, 1998.           I had many problems when I was born, but it doesn't matter    now, because it's a long story.           Since I was a kid, with 13 years old, I always wanted to be an actor, model, singer, I watched movies imitating the characters. I’ve been through for many terrible things. I already had some opportunities sometime ago, including going to the USA, but I was unable to go due to financial conditions, the differences between USD and BRL, because of financial conditions, of the distance. I tried  many things, get investors, sponsorship, but I didn't got anything, in fact, I only received negative responses, many people tried to make me give up, many humiliated me, this is a long story. But I will not let anything or anyone stop me from achieving what I always wanted, and sa